i went to sleep early tonight and literally just woke up a few minutes ago from this mystic-like dream in which i was shown that after elder ancestors become deceased they can show things to those family members still living. in being able to do so, ancestor spirits could guide living members of the family through spiritual means, like they could watch over them and literally guide living members with a sort of instantaneously, unsuspecting-ly received communication of ideas or direction. but because of this hands-on sort of spiritual guidance, the deceased ancestors can only look after so many family members at a time. my extended family is very large. so, after learning all this, i came to a realization that i had had more challenges figuring out my way through life, because the ancestors hadn't been watching me--due to the fact that amongst the second/third generation of cousins, i was one of the youngest and therefore not focused on (since in taiwanese culture, there is a sort of hierarchy of age). i had the sense that i had been watched over, just not as attentively or much as I could've benefited from.
then the scene changed through various going-ons....one of which things involved some people and i talking excitedly about what vegetarian movies were coming out (like there was a genre unrelated to the topics of vegetarian diet or nutrition or "lifestyle" in a narrow sense, that was somehow a vegetarian genre).
